as the girls graduate!

3 years back they had walked in ..as monica and i like to say we had met on the street..it was quite like that she had emailed me and i had met her at dunkin donuts across from county and we had all gone shopping together..that indeed was the beginning of our friendship ..over the next month we had dinner together almost everyday..and when she got a room mate we drifted apart and i settled in to realising that things change but yet valued her ...the possesive scorpio missed her..i remember we sat at the steps of her apartment and fought about it.... !! friends we stayed!! luckily for me!! and then her Mr.Right came along and Monica moved out... it was weird that i cud not walk to her apartment every evening but oh well..Friends we stayed!! And now its time for her to graduate and leave New York i know i will miss you little girl!! but i am also proud of you -good luck!!
can't remember the first time i ran into swati ...did we work together? did we meet at a desi gang get together? don't know !! but as the only 2 single girls in the group..we spent or well tried to spend a lot of free weekends on random adventures...somehow swati always had to do laundry ;)...just kidding!! she was amazing, knew her stuff better than any other resident i knew and yet had no faith in herself....the prettiest, always perfectly dressed, with a voracious appetite for books and music, swati could amaze anybody any day!! we exchanged notes on being single and that picture of our shadows will always remind me of the good time we spent together...u'll do amazingly well!! and we will always miss you!!
Prita...the girl in red!! remember that bridal shower and well of course all the rides to work together!! the miss photogenic of our group ! and the girl that never answered her phone!!
thanks for visiting me just before i left i remember you helped me pack that first carton ...all thos parties and how can any one ever forget "kajrare" ...i know you'll be happy wherever you are and i wish you al the joy!! thanks for the letter of recommendation!!

unknown sentiments!

it was weird how in a moment the emotions that had surrounded me unknowingly 4 years back became obvious .. when i had moved to New York 4 years back so much was happening that in the act of dealing with it i had even cut off my feelings from reacting to the facts!! and at that moment when cornered about how i had felt and how could i have not dreaded it i realised that unaware i had fought that battle without hesitation... God does give us our defenses!! or as Richard Bach says we are never given a wish without also being given the power to make it come true!

the flower i love

i have always loved carnations something about their beauty fascinates me ..but lately i have been noticing how nature nurtured beauty in every aspect..the tulips that stand tall and proud -a single flower standing alone yet radiates joy..

the dandelions that when puffed away lose their existence and yet disperse life..

the orchids that amaze with their royal attitude ..the rose that will forever be the expression of mankind..love, joy, friendship, hope, sympathy, compassion - silently they say it all ..

me again

i say it often that i miss you all but what i don't say is that its something that makes me happy its the happy memories that are my never ending source of energy..
they say we move on and build our own new circle..i did too...lots of new people almost a whole new family and yet the old days continue to live,sometimes it feels like its an alternate future..its existence is so real and at others i know its too far behind its so distant that it seems like a bubble and if i touch it with reality it will burst!!
but amidst all this in me is a little ray of hope a little desire to smile on and on..i look at the universe and say beat me to it and i will still give you happiness in return!!

somebody once sent me a mail which was about why people come into our life..some people come for a lifetime, some for a season either ways there is always a reason...i realised its so true..

15,000 miles of togetherness

9 mths and 15000 miles, my friend, my comapnion my partner in crime - my car has changed my life...long drives even if they were alone..adventures... discoveries...getting lost or just driving to work... a world in itself ...my favourite music...my dreams... so much has changed with "divster"
she has helped me deal with so many questions...well except for the speeding ticket ...
driving past the trees every morning..as i watch the sunset in the distance evry evening i feel a joy that is mine to cherish..a confidence fills me as i turn the steering wheel ... i know its going to be a great day! for i hold it in my palms...

the search

it doesn't matter what we accomplish it doesn't matter where we are in life, we all continue to search for something..as we grow and accomplish we change our goals but we continue to yearn for that which we do not have....i realized today that however happy man maybe he is never ready to say that he has it all!!!
on another note i found out today that my dearest friend from school had a baby daughter and the news brought tears to my eyes i yearned to hold the liitle girl and wondered how my friend had transitioned from the little girl i knew to be the mother of a new ray of happiness!!

yearning to write

let me say it all over again..if you send out a random question to the universe what happens to it?
does some magical supernatural power grab it and shoot the answer back? or does it vanish into nothingness or does it loom over your rexistence as a dark cloud never giving up on you soul till its drained out every pleasant thought??
"friend" what a magical word it gives you the strength to dare because you know there is someone to fall back on.. it eases your pain in times of distress and shares your moments of accomplishment.. but when a friend hurts ..i wish somebody would give me a magic wand to fix her world.. a potion to heal her wounds and since i have neither all i can do is be there.. i don't know if you are reading this but i just want you to know i'll be there for you .....